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Saturday 30 May 2015

Couldn't sleep cos too many thoughts were running through my mind, so I decided to run to My Father again. Was praying with a heavy heart, and a still small voice came. "Ask and it will be given..."

Ask and it will be given.

So I asked. At the end of my prayer, I listened to With Everything by Hillsong and realised that's what a faith-filled prayer is like. That's how my prayer just now should be like.

"Break down our pride
And all the walls we've built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your Feet

Let Hope rise
Darkness tremble in Your Holy Light"

Jermia hopped off at 08:52

Friday 29 May 2015

Whee I'm finally back for a post after being on a hiatus for nearly one whole year! O.O

Many things have happened since 1 year ago... I became an NTU student, studying Accountancy and Business! :) I honestly wouldn't have seen myself studying in NTU, especially accountancy and/or business in university. I hated business and how cut-throat this subject seemed to me then. Even a few months after I finished taking my A levels, my only consideration was NUS medicine/pharmacy/political science etc. But after a few twists and turns, here I am :) I wouldn't say I love Accountancy and Business now. I didn't know why I'm in here, until perhaps a few weeks ago. I saw a vision and a purpose for being here, and a burden that was placed in my heart. Now I'm excited for what is to come :)

And then actually studying in NTU. I remember there was this week I had 3 project presentations and 2 tests to study for. Woah it was crazy. I was screaming and pulling my hair in my room HAHAHA. I think uni really stretched my capacity, and made me understand and believe more than ever the phrase 船到桥头自然直. I remember at the start of uni I would stress myself out with longlong to-do lists even before the weeks started. But throughout the week I realised that things weren't as bad and stressful as I had imagined. Yes I had tutorials, assignments and projects to do, but I still had time to hang out with my trench buddies and do the things I love in church. Even though I have more things on my plate now, my heart has never been more at peace. More than grateful for my on fire trench buddies and sisters that never fail to inspire me and lift my thoughts up to a more faith-filled level. Thank you for running this race together with me :) Let's do well and do good together!

Thankful to My Heavenly Father who has been there in my mountains and valleys. In church our pastors and leaders always tell us that Christianity is not a religion but a relationship. It's so so true :) I can talk to God anytime and anywhere about my joys and worries, in my room and even in my bus and MRT train rides. Thankful for Him for giving me strength and peace to last me through crazy days and weeks.

The past two weekends, Pastor How and Pastor Lia shared with us about the Fig Tree. In the Book of John, Chapter One, it tells of the story of a faithful worshipper called Nathanael who would spend time under the fig tree praying and spending time with God. I have experienced the Presence of God countless times in my life, both in services and during my quiet time. In crazy chiong times like the one I described above, I would listen to worship songs and they would bring me so much faith and strength to conquer everything. Each time His Presence would leave me feeling so loved, and through His still small voice would come words of wisdom, assurances, and challenges to grow. I love God's Presence, but Pastor Lia shared with us that while salvation is free, the price of God's presence is time. I realised that on days that I feel tired and discouraged, when I needed God's Presence the most, I didn't pay the price of time to just worship, pray and read his word. Now I'm challenged all over again to treasure His Presence even more with my time. It's amazing how sitting under the fig tree at the end of the day would leave you feeling refreshed and ready to start the next day :D

Last week's sermon by Pastor How was mindblowinggg! So challenged in my heart to always pray with faith and power. Still remember before I came to church, my prayers would go like this, "Dear Heavenly Father, please bless me with good results. Please let me get into Nanyang Girls' High School. Please...please...please..." Hahaha looking back, I was so faithless in God's love for me! I left my prayers to chances and probabilities that it would come to pass. But Pastor How shared with us that prayer is not begging God; It's not begging for God to change His mind and heart. It is meant to align our hearts and thoughts to His, because God is a good God.

And about the power of confession! Our leader shared with us during zone meeting about the power of confession. The first words that are ever spoken are not for communication, but for creation. The first words ever spoken are "Let there be Light". Woww! Our words have the ability to create and build!

Looking back at the past one year, I'm thankful that I've matured in my walk with God. So thankful for pastors and leaders for working so hard to build the church just so that people like me can experience the love of God. So thankful for the church and my trench buddies for always looking out for me, doing crazy things together with me, and fighting alongside me.

So so so excited for the future!

Jermia hopped off at 22:49